I've had it with BLOGGER/BLOGSPOT

I am tired of losing posts, not being able to access this site, tired of folks having problems with this site and not being able to leave comments... I'm sick sick sick of it!

If anyone has a better solution than my moving these posts ONE BY ONE from here to my own site, please let me know... the webhosting service has an "easy" Blogger transfer but when I tried it several months ago I think I about blew it.....

Anyway, for now this is my last post here -- I am continuing with this blog H-E-R-E so come see me there!

Sorry for the inconvenience but I think this will be a lot easier in the long run...
Cheers y'all!

...and here is one with both LeahClair and me! She still had on her locket in this pic, although by the end of dinner it was missing -- locket later located, chain still missing....??? 

Okay, here is one that shows the dress - but by then she'd pulled out her hairbow... Zack was with his father so he wasn't there for pics... 

LeahClair as promised..... although I think I should load one of her that shows her pretty dress.... she is just so sweet -- yes, I am a bit biased on the issue! 

Well, he either got fired or quit his job....

It was 2-3 weeks ago when I first heard he'd gotten fired on a Monday. Then supposedly the next day he was able to get "re-hired" with a demotion (no longer a department manager) to another department and loss of pay grade (maybe a dollar or two an hour!).
Then that Thursday I was there with Zack to buy diapers. I wasn't expecting to see him there but he was and, to make a long story short (I'll have to elaborate another time as I have been a very bad blogger this month) he ripped off his name tag, threw it as hard as he could behind some large object, called me very loudly a female dog just as 2 firemen walked past, and seemingly almost broke the glass out of the door hitting it to open it and walk out.
He didn't go back there to work that day and I don't think he ever went back.
Then I heard that he was taking a leave of absence because "his children were sick"... OH PUHLEEZE!! He had Zack that Monday and Tuesday til 7pm because Leah was in the hospital and he didn't even go visit her in the hospital except for maybe 20 minutes on the Saturday she was admitted!!
Anyhow, I heard today that he really is no longer employed there.
He's yet to mention it to me... I wonder what he thinks we'll do about insurance for Zack? LeahClair is still on Medicaid, thank G-d, but Zack is on Ricky's BC/BS policy through "work"... I suppose I'll have to ask him about it so I can confirm with DSS for an application to put Zack on Medicaid, too...

I saw a bumpersticker the other day - "WORK HARDER. PEOPLE ON WELFARE DEPEND ON YOU!"
Made me feel about -this- high..... well, I do work part time, I do work full time here with the kids and I do work part time helping here with my folks.... I guess I don't feel too bad...

He didn't get LeahClair this weekend....

Nothing unusual, I suppose.... I didn't even bat an eye. He picked up Zack as per usual on Friday afternoon. He had the Vickie with him and her son as well. I left immediately after saying bye to Zachary.

Then, Saturday came and went with no word from Ricky.
We had Passover seder at Hannah's and everybody missed little Zachary and I promised everyone he would be there Sunday night. Leah was cranky but she was lovely in her yellow dress -- she wore what she wore to Ricky's mother's on Easter. She was lovely, I'll post a picture (if I can remember how!).
Then, Sunday -- no call from Ricky again. Poor little Leah - again she is treated like a second class citizen by her father.

When I started getting Leah dressed for the evening at around 4:30 I turned on my car phone... lo and behold, messages from her father. He'd called Saturday morning once and left a message and he'd called around noonish that day. His message Sunday was something to the effect, "It's Sunday afternoon and I haven't seen my daughter, I'm sure you're getting a big kick out of it... I'll get a kick out of it next week..." and hung up.
WELL DUH!!! If he had really wanted to see LeahClair the weekend like he has the privelege of being allowed to do, why in the heck didn't he call us AT HOME!!??!!?? I mean, PUHLEEZE! What a creep!
So I got my cousin Charlie to ride with me to pick up Zack. I had a feeling he would try to get in my face or be ugly to me or show his ass -- I was right... Charlie went with me and he had gotten out of the car to smoke a cigarette while we waited for Ricky to get there. When Ricky got there he had only his mother with him. Charlie had walked toward the rear driver side of Ricky's truck and when Ricky got out he walked up to him, hand outstretched to shake, and started saying hello, how've you been, all the niceties....
When Ricky came around to the passenger side of his truck and passed Zack to me he asked "Doesn't your cell phone work anymore?".
I said, "My home phone works".
He said "That wasn't what I asked you. Doesn't your cell work anymore?" to which I again replied that our home phone works.
He repeated his dimwitted question again and his mother put her window down a bit more and told him, "Don't worry about it Ricky" and he shut up and went on and got in his truck......

He didn't want to visit with Leah any more than I want a sexually transmitted disease! The Jerk!!! If he had, he'd have called the house when he didn't get an answer or a return call in a short while on Saturday....
Not to mention it's obvious when a cellular telephone is turned off because the voice mail picks up right away without the rings....

Bad blogger -- PLUS -- Leah was HOSPITALIZED!!!

This post will be short but I will definitely post more and get up to date within the next few days - no later than Saturday is my goal.

* Leah got sick Friday starting at 11am'ish.
* Took her to the doctor 3pm'ish.
* Diagnosed with AGE (acute gastroenteritis). Told to return in AM if she was not better.
* Took her back to the doctor 10am Saturday morning.
* Doctor admitted her right away - precaution for dehydration.
* Saturday afternoon after a stool sample diagnosis changed to "Rotovirus".

Talk about one sick little girl! Y'all, I was so worried!

It was Ricky's weekend with the kids, too, and I couldn't even get in touch with him! He'd gotten Zachary Friday afternoon so he knew that Leah was very sick and had been to the doctor and that she would have to return to the doctor if she wasn't better the next morning.
I finally decided to call Ricky's mother who I care very, very little for. She wouldn't tell me where Ricky and Zack were but that she would call him and have him call me.....
It was almost NOON finally when he called my cell.

He did come to the hospital on Saturday for about 20 minutes but that was it -- that was the last we saw or heard from him... the jackass, sorry excuse for a daddy never called for or visited his hospitalized, infant daughter in the hospital after that.

Then had the nerve to say I was lying about her being discharged this evening and that I was only wanting Zachary back tonight because I didn't want HIM to have him any longer.....

He's gonna get me for contempt of court...

This post may or may not be long long long but right now I have about 2 1/2 hours that I can work so I need to do that while I am kid-free...
Suffice it to say that it is Easter Sunday, Ricky didn't call here til almost 2:00 (remember, he has 4 hour visitation and on Sundays visitation ends at 6:00pm....).

He'd called from a number I didn't recognize so I asked where he was and he told me that he didn't think that was any of my business. I hung the phone up in his ear.
I can't count how many times he has made me feel like I owe him explanations as to where I am if I have the children with me and I am not at home. He has always said that if his children were involved it did concern him so I have always told him what I was doing, where I was, who was there, any time he asked and I have never been untruthful with him about it if he did ask. I didn't like it but I thought he might be right that he should be able to ask and know where his children were. So when he told me it was none of my business where my son was I was at a loss for words.... so I hung up. I know, maybe not the most rational thing but daggone it!! Besides, I had the number he called from on caller ID so I could have called back in a while when my nerves got settled...

He called back with an attitude, cussing me, called me names so that I hung up on him 4-5 times... every time he called back and started cussing me I told him not to cuss me and he'd say he'd cuss me if he wanted and one time he even tried lying to himself and said he'd not cussed at me at all.... He had me all upset right in front of my company (which, I do admit is my own fault for letting him get to me, although it wasn't until his 5th call that I actually blew up)

Anyhow, I think it was on his 6th call back on the house phone that he asked me would I be ready for the sheriff when they came to serve contempt of court papers on me, that he had me on 4 counts of contempt of court and that the only reason I'd not been served already was because he'd asked his attorney not to do it...
The nerve of him!
Plus, he sounded all stuffed up, congested, like he had a bad cold... he probably had the cocaine cold. I am so tired of dealing with all this already.

Well, after that phone call ended a few minutes later his mother called.
Seems they're having an Easter Egg Hunt at her place and she really wants Leah to be there so could she come get her. (hmmm, when I was growing up our Easter Egg Hunts were always first thing in the morning - like opening Christmas presents). I listened to her story about how she never gets to see the children, that she only got to see them for an hour on Friday, blah blah blah -- anyway. I let her come get Leah (she got here about 10 til 3pm) and told her I'd get her when I got Zack at 6:00 at the Food Lion parking lot, my and Ricky's usual spot. She said she or Ricky one would bring them back. I sure hope it's her because I won't have anyone to ride with me and I don't know what Ricky's problem is other than drugs .. it's how he used to act to me when he was doing all that cocaine before. I assume that methamphetmines do the same thing, like speed or something and he was all hyped up. It's those methamphetamines that the Vickie was/is supposedly doing so hard and heavy.

Anyway, I went on longer than I planned -- I have got to get to typing.
H A P P Y
E A S T E R
E V E R Y O N E!!

He called back....

He called back about 5 minutes ago....

Him: "What's the earliest I can get the kids today?'
Me: "When do you want them?"
Him: "I want them all the time"
Me: "Yeah, right. Prove it. What time do you want to pick them up?"
Him: "How about 12:30 or 1:00?"
Me: "That will be fine. WHERE do you want to pick them up?" (note the hint of sarcasm)
Him: "Wherever you say"
Me: "Fine. Pick them up here at the house then"
Him: "At your house?"
Me: "Yeah" (but thinking, NO THE WHITE HOUSE)
Him: "Okay. I'll call you when I'm on the way"
Me: "Okay, fine" and I hung up.

It's like he has a personality disorder, split personality or something....
He calls here while ago cussing me and pissed at me I guess for breathing, then just now he is very docile....
I wonder if I should be worried.... should I have him picking them up here but daggone it at $2.13 for a gallon of gas let HIM be the one to drive 14 miles here and back!

Phone call -- lame, lamer, lamest

So he just called here from his cell phone. He actually, as always, called my cell phone.
Anyway...

I answered and he says, "What's happening?"
I asked him the same.
Him: "That's what I asked you, what's happening?"
Me: "What's happening with you? What happened yesterday?"
Him: "I fuckin' worked yesterday"
Me: "You could have called somebody"
Him: "I don't recall my fuckin' phone ringing either"
Me: "That's not the way it works Ricky. You knew I'd be sitting there at 2:00."
Him: "Sitting where?"
Me: "At the Food Lion!" (doh! the place we ALWAYS meet, where legal docs say we meet!)
Him: "We never even said where we were going to meet!"
Me: "This won't happen again."
Him: silence
Me: "What can I do for you right now?"
Him. "You can't do a g-ddamn thing for me!"

CLICK -- He hangs up.

What a creep!

Passed on visit yesterday -- NO SHOW today!!!

Yesterday he called at 1:45 to explain how he was leaving work early so that he could go back in and work from 10pm last night until 8am this morning. He wanted to go home and rest since he was going to go back and work all night and could he just get the kids Thursday.
I told him no problem (as usual). We decided on meeting at 2pm at our usual place. He said his plan was to get off work around 8:00 this morning, go home and get a few hours of sleep and then meet us at 2pm. I asked him if he wanted me to give him a call to make sure he woke up on time and he said no thanks.

Well, today comes and I've got the kids all dressed in new clothes that we went out and bought with the child support Ricky finally paid (yup, he had it to my attorney's office yesterday where I picked it up and C-A-S-H-E-D that bad boy). Y'all should've seen little Leah in her big girl grown up Levi's! She was so precious looking! ...and I bought her first pair of shoes ever and she was wearing them, too! Zack was wearing a sweet pair of jean shorts and his soccer T-shirt with grey socks on to match and his high-top Nikes! Leah had one of her new hair bows in her hair, too!

So we got there at 5 after 2pm but Ricky wasn't there yet.
10 after, no Ricky...
quarter after, no Ricky
Finally at 25 after 2pm, after waiting 20 minutes, we left.
My mother was with us as we'd planned on going shopping while I was kid-free since she desperately needs some new clothes... she has shriveled up to next to nothing since she got sick this last time and nothing she has fits, it all just hangs off of her.

Well, as I type this at 10:00 PM I have yet to even recieve a phone call from that sorry excuse for a male human being! Which, of course, means neither has Zack.
And ordinarily I NEVER EVER say anything to Zack about seeing "daddy" until we are in the car and on the way there to meet him. Heaven forbid Zack be expecting to see his father and then not, ya know? Well, of all the times for me to choose to mention the visit!!! Yep, sure did! Told the Zack-man that he was going to get to play with "daddy" today and that he would probably get to ride on his little motorcycle, blah, blah, blah...... and then the creep not only doesn't show up hence making us (Zack) wait, but he didn't even call to apologize or anything, not even to speak to Zack if he didn't want to talk to me!

I suppose everyone else out there that has already been through this mess has, well, been through this mess -- until now this event was just a fear I had in my mind... I didn't really believe even Ricky would do this, and I certainly didn't expect him to do it so darn soon!!

I really wish I'd not said anything to Zack about it.
I'll never do that again - ever.

Lame if you ask me...

He had said on Wednesday evening, before court last Thursday, that he would like to see Leah or both Zack and Leah after court if it wasn't too late when we got out of there.
Well, I didn't wait around to talk to him that afternoon. It was right at 5pm when we finished in court anyway. He and his girlfriend were walking out right behind me, too, and he made no effort to talk to me about it either.

Then, Friday and Saturday and Sunday passed by without a phone call from him to ask to see the children. No biggie to me - as I've said before, I'd much rather them stay here with me anyway and it was a BEE-YOU-TEE-FULL day Sunday, warm and sunny, and we played outside throwing frisbee and bouncing basketball.

THEN....... late this morning at 11:45am, he calls on my cell phone.
I was at the office locating some missing dictation.
He asked to speak to Zack.... He calls Monday at lunchtime while he is at work and he asks to speak to Zack.... W-T-F??
What happened FRIDAY?
What about SATURDAY??
How about SUNDAY???
You jacka**!!!! You had all weekend to call and speak to Zack! You had all weekend to call to see Zack. ...and WHAT ABOUT LEAHCLAIR?? Does your daughter not exist?? HELLO!!!! You have 2, 2, count 'em, 2 - TEE-DUBYA-OH, TWO children, TWO!!
You waited til your LUNCH BREAK to take a SKINNY MINUTE to call on my cell phone to "let me talk to Zack" !!?? Kiss my wide, white butt you jerk!!!

** clears throat **
whew, I feel better now
bitter? me? never.....
** clears throat again **